wanna know sometin?? i'm a suker for really nice azn girls and funny girls... yeah it's a sick ness(-_-) i like too dance and make people laugh and shoot people*with a camera of course... also b-ball ya know ^_-
This would seem like a little thing but i just talked to one of my old friends from last year, i barely got to see him at all during this school year cause we parted ways, and he graduated so i congratulated him on his success. XD
In Intermediate Dance, he would always talk about wanting to graduate and wanting to go to this college or this other college, and you can tell he really wanted to succeed and make it somewhere in this world. And im glad that one of his stepping stones was fulfilled, he graduated high school XD im really really happy for him XD
The interesting thing he just told me however was somwhat simple but in all honesty, i didn't really think about it. "best of luck to you too, PLEASE enjoy life as much as you can, cause it hits you pretty hard once youre not a kid anymore. so live it up man, peaaace."
Hmmm.. Thats true though, I'm STILL a kid. an older kid but a kid nonetheless. alot of things are handed to me. and yet half of the time im not enjoying it because i like to think i grew up. but i didn't, i didn't grow up. im still a kid. Why must i deal with all these mind games and hardships already? Am i getting too ahead of myself? because it seems im not enjoying life right now. You know what, i've had it. I still have time, im only 16, i heard you're prime age is 28 28! thats 12 years! in twelve years i could have a muscles and purple contacts i mean it's just daunting that we all face soo many things and yet we're so very very young. Im gonna enjoy life as much as i can, im just kind of mad that i'm being told this NOW. Thanks Evan. Congratulations. XD
Mr. Brightside is just constantly ringing through my head. it's like on and on and on. I dont mind though! it's a good song, a damn good song for that matter, but i just want to forget you know? it's all said and done, and on the surface, it's looking great! for one person it's not but, whatever.
So i'm going to the Bay Area this weekend for my aunts wedding anniversary. and im excited cause i get to see my cousins and all, and everytime we go to the Bay it's PREDOMINATELY a good time. Some occasions where someones acts like a bitch and ruins the trip but all in all it's steady trip xD. My aunt is kinda Strict? or crazy? haha nahh just kidding but when me and my brother and my cousins would play shit like Yugioh or something like that, she'd think it's the devil. So radical? Nah. Just a little strict is all. and she doesn't like black i guess? So i thought about wearing all black for her wedding but then that sounds really fucked up for me to do. Blah. Not nice at all. Congratulations to her and her husband. XD Here's to a good trip! May the road erase all the sad memories im having right now. as it always did in the past.
So it's offical, I LOVE car-rides. like really long ones because it helps you think, helps you expand while youre looking to the sky or the road, or how fast your parents are going. i should be a truck driver hahaha just keeeding XD
Glad im the only one on here now, blogspot is filled with too many people -_-"
dude like, i hate karma it's bull shit, and i hate how the only person i have to blame is me. yep. I know it's my fault. Did i want to fix it? yes i did! Did i do it? YES IS DID! was it worth it? Hell fucking yeah it was worth it, blow it out your ass douchebag. Then whats wrong? whats wrong?.. ..
I shouldnt've even done it in the first place. this whole thing is only being felt by me right now. Gahd. It's like, You realize it, you realize it's done. and you're like damn man. time machine would be useful or something of that sort. Too tell yourself in the past, Hey, watch what you're gonna do man, dont jump ahead of yourself. because you will get bit in the ass sooner or later. Bahm right now. I learned something from it though i guess you could say? Dont be a dumbshit.
And the only person to blame, is me myself and i I fell... really bloody hard. for you. >.< and hey i didn't want you to know i still dont want you to know. because you deserve the best and to be happy. dont worry about me.
Oh goodness how longs it been since i've actually blogged?
These past two weeks were killer and to say the least bloody hard. DX practice till like six every day whatever it's dance it's fun. XD
i dont like posting on xanga anymore cause i look back too much on the shieeetty middle school shit and the dumb stuff i've said here and there, and i dont like the fact that i've left so many things unsaid even after sixth grade i still haven't gotten the balls to say what i want to say to her.
whatever, i guess it's never meant to be right?
i remember from a talk a long time ago at a household, "you always hear how the person you find to love will complete you, well in that case, you should already be complete and then you will find the love you are seeking."
I guess im not complete yet.
And i think i post here if im feeling the same calm and remiscent feeling i get when listening to a daphne loves derby chirstmas song or something. O.O
but anyway i dont like how time brings people farther and farther apart. The best friend you had that stuck by you in middle school is gone and your just left with a sour taste in you're mouth cause you know you'll never get back to that same friendship again, and it will always leave a sour taste in your mouth. but i i like how time brings people together, and the longer you stay with someone, usually you grow fonder right? Well ehh it depends.
Junior year is almost over, and it has been one of my growing up years, because i've expereinced plenty of the same things i have but i like to think of it as the greatest hits of my high school year so far. I acted like a total Douchebag I know Im sorry---> Allyson
And as i write this and getting ready for another day in junior year that brings me closer to senior year and then the rest of my life, i continue to reminsce, and see all the shennanigans me and all of my friends have gotten into. like at johnnies birthday party ,or jjdc, or sleepover at francis's house, and more.
Just wish i could remmeber all of them. but then i dont cause im happy to have experienced them.
Im glad no one reads these, cause it's confusing as hayyyll.
